Monday, September 24, 2012

3...

Three more days till I see my girls! Three more nights until I can blissfully sleep in. No kids screaming at me at 5am. No work waiting for me. I am so looking forward to this. 

Now if only my damn period would hurry and start so I'm not riding the cotton pony all weekend. 

I have been trying to catch up on blogs a little more regularly. It was going well until I started slipping myself again. Don't you hate it when you see yourself doing something and you feel helpless to stop it? In my quest to be more mindful of my decisions, I find myself falling into the trap of giving myself permission to have the not-so-good stuff way too often. Maybe the question needs to be more like, "Will this help me to reach my end goal of being healthy and losing weight?"

I also hate that I am in PMS mode right now. I weighed in for our challenge at work, and I was up a pound. It's hilarious because on my home scale I was up 4lbs. What the ever loving fuck is that about? I will never know. And for right now, I don't care. All my caring is wrapped up in getting all my work crap squared away so I can leave for 5 days and not have to (care, that is). Also, I am going to come clean and tell you that my scrub pants are tight, and that makes me mad. It also makes me glad I did not give into PMS cravings this morning.

I know there are some people out there who are probably saying, well, if she'd quit the donuts, she'd probably lose weight. Yeah, you're right. But, I just have to thank you guys for continuing to be nothing but supportive. I try to be honest here about where I'm at with things, and this past 6 months has been a struggle on so many levels. I want to continue to put it out there because I know there's always someone else feeling the same. If there's one thing I've learned from blogging, it's that we are not alone!

9 comments:

Kristin50 said...

I cannot wait to see you! I am so excited!!!!!!

Ronnie said...

Ugh, I hate to even say this... because we all say this to each other all the time... but in this case... I bet it's period bloat making the pants so tight. Mine were SUPER tight this month around my TOM. I mean, maybe it was because I was being pretty cavalier with my diet, but not enough that I gained 4 lbs.

Hope you get off the cotton mouse before this weekend. That would be a drag!

CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOUUUU!

jennxaz said...

DITTO DITTO! No kids, or hubby or dogs asking me to do anything..
Chicago-take me away!

MandaPanda said...

I love people who tell you that if you just don't eat the crap, you'll lose weight. Really? If it were that easy, NO ONE would be fat! Ugh.

So jealous of everyone who gets to go to Chicago. Maybe next year... (as I've said every year...)

Beth said...

Can't wait to meet you! As you know beating ourselves or each other up is counter productive! I know you can do it!

Laura Belle said...

Ya, I think we need to look at it as a end goal, ya know. Like, I know I really really want that one donut now, but it's going to make my pooper the size of the Goodyear Blimp later.....so no no on the dono.

3 MORE DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!
(explanations just for you!)

Steph said...

LOL @ riding the cotton pony. I about spit out my sweet tea with that one!!!

And no, you're not alone...If I stopped muching on peanut buter cups, I might get firmly back to where I want to be. It'll always be a struggle!

Can't wait to see you in 3 days!

Joey said...

WOOOOOOooooo!

And you did not just say cotton pony...

Tina @ The Bandit Girl said...

hahahaha.....riding the cotton pony!!! LOL