Wednesday, April 27, 2011

San Francisco anyone?

Okay, blog peeps! I'm going to be in Stanford, CA at the end of June. Anyone near there want to meet up? I just booked my tix, and, wow, was that a painful amount. So, I need some BOOBs love to make it worth it!

Monday, April 25, 2011


Warning, angst ahead...

First up, I find myself, once again, relearning how to eat with my band. Now that I have some restriction to speak of, I'm finally getting some fairly early stop signs, and things that I have had no problem eating over the last few months are now turning into big no-nos. My brain is having a hard time keeping up. I keep serving myself way too much food, and even though I don't finish it, I find myself taking that one or two bites too many. And then I'm miserable and on the brink of barfing for the next hour. For example, today at lunch I ate about 1/3 cup of bean soup, 1 little slice of kohlrabi, and 2 crackers with hummus. Respectable, no? The crackers and hummus at the end there put me over the edge.

I'm also finding sugar to be a huge issue. I've been sneaking it again. It's so embarrassing. I'm really beginning to think that I need to go back to something like that elimination diet I did before. I was able to handle some sugar in my tea and coffee without going on a crazy binge, but I avoided anything else. Of course, no rice this time.

Food issues aside, exercise is still not happening. Meanwhile, my hubby has lost an amazing 55lbs counting calories on his iPhone since last summer. I'm very proud of him -- has has incredible willpower and self-discipline. Now, he has decided he needs to exercise if he's going to get the last 30 pounds off. So, he's doing Couch to 5k, and he wants me to show him some weightlifting stuff he can do at home. Of course, I am super supportive of this. On the other hand, I am insanely jealous. I get crapped on for not getting chores or laundry done or not getting the kids fed right off because I took an hour to come home and exercise, yet he comes home way later than me, and then takes off for his run while I feed and bathe the kids. I don't know... it just really chaps my ass. I feel like there is a giant double standard here, and I don't like it. I've been trying to figure a way to fit exercise in without letting my house fall into a complete shambles, and I'm failing miserably. This one decides to run a 5k and just jumps headlong into it and still manages to pick fights with the two year old about whether or not she's going to finish the chicken nuggets. But, I digress...

Anyway, I think I'm feeling a little weird about my exercise throne being usurped by the hubs. I was always the one going to the gym, going for walks, whatever, and now, I'm the one doing NOTHING. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it.

And I just got distracted for about 10 minutes looking at lolcats. So, I'm done. Hope ya'll are having a better Monday than me!

Thursday, April 21, 2011


Fill in full effect. Just sayin'. Hopefully it's

not just because I'm OTR.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Fill day!

I got a fill this morning, thank the good Lord. I've been so hungry lately. Restriction only fleeting. Funny... I didn't even ask how much he gave me. It's probably better not to get bogged down in the details. So, as usual, I have high hopes for this fill. I'm longing to be back to the zone where I can drop ten pounds a month with a minimum effort.

Anywhoozlebeans, my kids are mostly recovered from their illness, so hopefully I'll be back online more and have a real substantial post for ya'll soon. Yes, I just typed ya'll.

Saturday, April 16, 2011


When did I get so boring? My brother in law and his girlfriend (who I adore) visited today, and, after they left, I realized we had very very little conversation outside of the kids. I mean, they're pretty damn cute and all, but really? I can't come up with anything interesting to talk about? No one else made much of an effort either, and everyone seemed to have a fine time visiting, so I guess it's not that big of a deal. Weird.

By the way, I'm watching Secondhand Lions (it was on tv earlier today), and I just have to say I love this movie. That is all.

Random banded lady sighting

I met a lady who has a band the other day. We got to talking about it because my throat was gurgling like crazy, and I felt the need to explain it. She told me she's had her band for about three years. At one point, she had lost 50lbs, but now she's gained it all back. She also said she hasn't had a fill appointment in over a year because she doesn't like her doc (who happens to be my doc). I honestly didn't know what to say. I felt bad for her because here she has this awesome tool and it's just going to waste! I heard every excuse coming out of her -- you know, the ones we all have fallen back on at one time or another. I encouraged her to go back to the doc and get a fill. I told her how long I've had mine and how I didn't really start losing until a few years out. I wanted her to know that it's never too late to use your band. She wasn't buying it though. Oh well, I tried.

Have you guys ever come across this kind of situation? What did you say?

Tuesday, April 12, 2011


I'm having one of those weeks where I feel like I can't get off the hamster wheel. Each day feels like I'm just going through the motions, just getting through it. I don't feel like I'm living! This is especially hard when I'm trying to motivate to get consistent with exercise. I know it's just the whole working full time, two little kids, blah blah blah thing, but honestly? Sometimes I just feel like I need a break. Stop the world, I want to get off!

Anyway, that's where I am.

Saturday, April 9, 2011


Check out the Progress Pics page for some new piccies!

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Bad grocery trip and hip stuff

All this past week hubs an I have been talking about getting back on the horse with meal planning and cooking and all that. We have really slacked on that the last two weeks, and it shows. I no like it, as the tater tot would say. I want my breakfast, lunch, dinner, and snacks all reasonably planned  -- just like I did those first few weeks of the elimination diet.

So what happens? Hubs goes grocery shopping this morning, and comes home with processed food GALORE. Lipton noodle packages, frozen meals, fruit cups. OMG. It was all I could do to keep a straight face. And then I had a little binge of Voortman's Sugar Wafers, which also arrived home in this shipment. I seriously could just scream. Instead, I will try to focus my energy on planning for myself, and trying to create the best dinners out of what we have on hand. Our organic produce shipment doesn't come till Thursday, so I'm going to have to sneak into the store tonight or tomorrow to get some real food to eat.The only fresh stuff we have on hand is one mango, one apple, and some lettuce (and I don't do salads much these days).

There is a woman at work who I've become "lunch friends" with. She is a Weight Watchers lifetimer, and this is what she eats for lunch every day: big bowl of cottage cheese with fresh cut tomatoes and onion and dry italian dressing mix, assorted other raw veggies, and the occasional grilled chicken. Now, the cottage cheese mixture totally grosses me out, but I am trying to take a page from her book on raw veggies. I can't eat anywhere near the volume she does, but I've been packing up my cooler Monday and it lasts me a few days. Cucumbers with a little red wine vinegar, kohlrabi (hello, yum!), red and yellow peppers, etc. My challenge continues to be the protein. I don't want to resort to cold cuts, because of the salt. Maybe I just need to suck it up and buy a rotisserie chicken every Monday and eat that the rest of the week for lunches.

Enough food rambling...

Have I mentioned my hip lately? You know, the one that stiffens up on me after sitting for a half hour? The one that pops when I walk? The one that is so f'd up that my knee rolls in when I'm trying to climb stairs? Yes, it's gotten that bad. I even stopped doing my squats last week because I was in damn near constant pain. Well, I finally decided to do something about it, and that something is the chiropractor. Oh how I love chiropractic! I've been off and on with them since high school -- my lower back used to do this weird thing where it would just buckle and give out, and regular adjustments helped it alot. I had a feeling my hip issues were mechanical, so I thought this was a good place to start. I got a good rec from a coworker, and I got in Friday afternoon. He took some x-rays and holy cow, my hips really are all farfed up! My whole pelvis looks rotated, and all because of a few lumbar vertebrae out of whack. There a few cervical vertebrae that need some help too.

He did a quick adjustment, and it felt so good. Is it strange that I like it so much? Anyway, Saturday, I was feeling a bit of a pull in one side of my back. I took it easy and tried not to aggravate it. My hip felt about the same. Today? Hip is noticeably better. There's a ways to go yet, but I wasn't hurting just sitting there, which is a huge improvement. I go for another adjustment Monday after work.

One other interesting little tidbit... he noticed how my hair is thinning on top and suggested I do a liver cleanse by drinking 2 teaspoons of apple cider vinegar diluted in water twice a day. That's all? Done. I ran into GNC on the way home and picked up some Braggs Organic ACV. Even if my hair situation doesn't improve, I'm sure my liver will thank me.

On that note, I will call it a night.