Tuesday, August 24, 2010

This is where my head is at...

So, I don't love my j/ob. There's parts of it I do like immensely, especially my coworkers, but overall I feel like I have more to contribute and, frankly, I'm bored. I get frustrated by stupid things because I'm powerless in my current spot to fix them. I'm not passionate about the technical aspects, like some people are. I want out.

I haven't been actively 'looking.' It's really easy to be complacent when your w/ork is easy and boring and the like. The dinero is good, the hours are good, the person in char/ge of me is great, what is there to complain about, really? I just feel like there is more out there for me and more of me to offer.

A few days ago, I was searching the internal postings and there it was: my perfect way out of direct pa\tient care. I meet the requirements, and I'm very qualified, it sounds right up my alley, so I decided to apply. I'm terrified. It's a huge step for me. I've been in my current spot for going on five years now. I always knew I didn't want to be there forever, but I wasn't sure I was ready to go yet. But when the universe smacks you in the face with something this big, I really think you have to seize the day. Maybe they won't think I'm the right person. Maybe they won't even call. That will be disappointing, but it will be ok. Because I put myself out there and took a chance. You've got to take that first step if you're going to get anywhere ever. You won't finish the race if you never get off the starting line.

My head is full of turmoil over this. In a good way, of course. It's stressful, but it's a good step forward out of a rut. I could draw many parallels to the way I'm feeling about my weight loss right now, but you guys have heard all of that before. I need to seize the day there as well, get off the starting blocks, put some effort out into the universe and see what I get back.

Hope you all have a good Wednesday!

5 comments:

Pamela E. Williams said...

Good luck with the job you are applying for. I think we are in similar positions.

Island Bandit said...

fingers crossed. good for taking the leap. I firmly believe we spend FAR TOO MUCH time at work to be miserable there.
I too, am BORED. OUT OF MY SKULL BORED. the j/ 0 /b is working out for me right now because i have a lot of freedom and between getting myself ready for surgery and building a house, i need that. had already told a friend that once i'm healed, i think i'll start l- 0 0 -king for something else. and interestingly, something big that would require a leap of faith, cropped up yesterday. am exploring.
Good Luck!

amandakiska said...

Good luck!

Jenny said...

Keep moving forward! Its always hard to make changes, but its important to be happy in your work. We spend more time there than with our families!!

Jennifer said...

You can do it - take the leap of faith.