This Spring Forward nonsense is seriously fucking with me this week. I'm feeling good, despite staying up a little later, but my routines are suffering. Like today, I didn't get the little guy fed until almost 6:45, so bathtime didn't start until 7:15... everything almost a half hour late! I know it doesn't seem like much, but our bedtime routine is fairly regimented. Hey, it works for us. I have a two and a half year old who goes to bed every night at 8:00 without a fuss and a 15 month old who falls asleep either in the swing or our laps also without much to-do. I'll be as regimented as I have to be to keep that up!
In other news, I am totally sabotaging myself with food. I have had so much junk today it is not even funny. WTF? It started out ok: banana with flax seed for brekky, lunch was beans/rice/broccoli. Then, at lunch, for some reason I decided I needed chocolate pudding. And it got stuck! After a brief sliming episode, it went down. Now normally, after even a little bitty stuck episode like that, I would take it easy for the next few hours. Today, no. Today, I followed lunch with a couple bites of Moose Munch, a piece of lemon cake, and a bag of M&Ms (at least it was a small bag). Seriously, what is that all about?
Granted, we had a bit of a stressful day at work (a code, no less), but I thought I would've done better considering my recent elimination diet success. Looks like maybe I need to get a little hardcore again for a week or two. Seems as if I've let too much processed crap back into my life. It still begs the question of why though. Why, the very week I start exercising again, would I do this to myself? It's frustrating. It reminds me of something I saw on Biggest Loser this week. One of the girls was talking about how before she didn't think she deserved a better life. Do I believe that about myself? On the surface I don't think so. Deep down? Maybe. I guess I just don't know how to dig down there and figure it out. All I know is I have to keep exercising and keep dragging myself back onto the right track with food.