Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Time change blues

This Spring Forward nonsense is seriously fucking with me this week. I'm feeling good, despite staying up a little later, but my routines are suffering. Like today, I didn't get the little guy fed until almost 6:45, so bathtime didn't start until 7:15... everything almost a half hour late! I know it doesn't seem like much, but our bedtime routine is fairly regimented. Hey, it works for us. I have a two and a half year old who goes to bed every night at 8:00 without a fuss and a 15 month old who falls asleep either in the swing or our laps also without much to-do. I'll be as regimented as I have to be to keep that up!

In other news, I am totally sabotaging myself with food. I have had so much junk today it is not even funny. WTF? It started out ok: banana with flax seed for brekky, lunch was beans/rice/broccoli. Then, at lunch, for some reason I decided I needed chocolate pudding. And it got stuck! After a brief sliming episode, it went down. Now normally, after even a little bitty stuck episode like that, I would take it easy for the next few hours. Today, no. Today, I followed lunch with a couple bites of Moose Munch, a piece of lemon cake, and a bag of M&Ms (at least it was a small bag). Seriously, what is that all about?

Granted, we had a bit of a stressful day at work (a code, no less), but I thought I would've done better considering my recent elimination diet success. Looks like maybe I need to get a little hardcore again for a week or two. Seems as if I've let too much processed crap back into my life. It still begs the question of why though. Why, the very week I start exercising again, would I do this to myself? It's frustrating. It reminds me of something I saw on Biggest Loser this week. One of the girls was talking about how before she didn't think she deserved a better life. Do I believe that about myself? On the surface I don't think so. Deep down? Maybe. I guess I just don't know how to dig down there and figure it out. All I know is I have to keep exercising and keep dragging myself back onto the right track with food.

3 comments:

Stephanie said...

I'm sitting here in my office at work totally feeling your pain. I've been busting my ass at the gym all weekm, yet I have an "emergency' bag of fudge stripe cookies in the drawer of my desk. Why do we do these things to ourselves? My weight loss has plateaued and I'm frustrated too. Let's be frustrated togehter, but Maria, know you're not alone in this!

MandaPanda said...

I totally hear you on this. I've been really good about working out but my food has been terrible all the sudden. Hang in there!

amandakiska said...

It sounds like you may have had a blood-sugar surge from the initial treat followed by a susequent plummet which prompted the cravings for more sugar. I am very aware of this reaction when it happens to me. I typically plan sweet snacks so I can be prepared.

I also find myself wanting to overeat following PB episodes. I think I tend to feel sorry for myself when I can't eat like I think I should and then I may have a pity-binge.