Monday, April 9, 2012

Denial. It ain't just a river in Egypt.

I am too tight. There, I said it. I have been fighting heartburn all the time, swigging pepto before I go to bed. I just had a little reflux now and I'm sitting up! It's ridiculous. I'm always the first to say not to f with your band, and here I am doing it. I have barely been able to eat a damn thing the last two weeks, and I know in the back of my head I was secretly trying to starve myself below 200 (cuz I'm so close, dang it!). BUT, It's not worth ruining my esophagus over. It's just not. Yesterday, I tried to eat ham and fruit for dinner and I barely managed two bites of ham and one strawberry. Then, you know what went right down? My sister's peanut butter trifle and fudge. At least the fudge was from a weight watchers recipe. Ha. I need an unfill. Pronto.

Maybe that is why I have been a little quiet here. You know that's how it goes. Things start going poorly, you're not losing, you're not feeling well, and blogging goes out the window. That's why I'm sharing this with you. It's not fun and it's not right to wake up in the middle of the night with your throat burning from acid. And with a band, we need to take extra care of our digestive tracts! You've only got one!

Okay, off my soapbox. Bottom line: Don't f with your band and heartburn!

9 comments:

Dawnya said...

Get that unfill ASAP!!! Feel better.

Gilly said...

Smart girl! And have I mentioned how awesome your blog looks? SO cute!!

Darlin1 said...

Get the unfill....most have said they have instant relief and still restriction.............pick up the phone and call........


XO

Rachel said...

I know how much it sucks to be there - knowing you need an unfill but not wanting it because you just want to lose more weight. I probably waited a bit too long and it took me longer to get back on track. We are here for you - if you don't feel like blogging, send an email!! xxx

MandaPanda said...

I'm glad to see this honest post from you about being too tight. Get that unfill! :)

Steph said...

being too tight sucks as much as being too loose! :) Even just a little bit taken out will make a world of difference. You're AWESOME to come out and post this because too many suffer in silence and being too tight is not the right way to lose the weight. So proud of you, hon!!

Cat said...

So glad to see you posting girly. Been thinking about you. Yep, get your unfill, just a bit and you'll feel difference. Your body needs nutrition to lose and you'll do better once your band is in a better place! : )

Lynda said...

It's like you're in my head! I am going on Wed for a wee un-fill. I've been putting it off because I'm FINALLY losing weight again. But, the heartburn is killing me...

Janice said...

Life is too short to fill less than great!

Keep us posted and let us know how it goes when you get an "unfill."