Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Coming clean

So... yeah.

It's been almost a month since I've posted. We all know what that usually means (cough cough backslide cough). It's true. I'm up a few. Only a few mind you, but a few just the same. Oh hell, I'll just say it. I was up to 210 last week.

I hurt my back a few weeks ago and that, couple with a sick and/or not-sleeping kid meant all my gym plans went in the toilet. Well, my back is better, but I've spiraled out of control pretty badly.

I'm going to admit something to you. I love the idea of paleo. I really believe there is something to it, that it makes sense, and that it's a really healthy way to eat. But you know what? I've used it as an excuse to eat high fat, tasty foods. It is definitely not conducive to me losing weight. That's me... I'll twist something and bastardize it until it's unrecognizable, yet I'll still be following "the rules" and still be getting frustrated that it's not working.

F it.

Normally I would follow that with some gung-ho statement about how I'm going to start doing X and quit doing Y. Blah blah blah-de-blah. Not this time. This time I'm going to wallow in my disappointment with myself for a little bit.

I do promise not to disappear for so long again. I know I owe you a January wrap-up.

8 comments:

Lynda said...

Hey...sometimes we all need a good wallow before we can get our head where it needs to be. Sorry you're struggling.

MandaPanda said...

I've been wallowing since December and am just now coming out of it. Paleo can go either way...Personally, I think getting rid of the processed crap is a great idea but sometimes it just isn't conducive to #1: a busy lifestyle and #2: someone trying to lose weight. I like that you're not setting yourself up for disappointment by making any big claims or goals, knowing that you're not in a place to be "gung ho" about it right now. I probably should follow your lead. We're here for you sweetie! :)

Robyn's Nest said...

It is not too late to pull yourself back up and go again. My motto is that you do not fail until you stop trying.

Lucy said...

ahhh sometimes a good wallow is called for, we are all human. You will get back on track.

Sarah from Onmyweightohappiness said...

Glad to see you back! We all fall off track at times, you caught yourself now pick yourself back up and do what you know you gotta do!

Dawnya said...

You have owned it and now you know what you are going to do. I know you are that person who can do anything. Try not to stay away so long. I missed you.

Ronnie said...

I'm wallowing with you. I think all us leapsters are to an extent. Dislike.

Beth Ann said...

I'm catching up on blogs. Quit bullshitting! :)