I've been called on the carpet in the past for my ambivalent attitude towards weight loss. I tried to examine it from a psychological perspective, and the best I can come up with is that ambivalence arises from a perception of being powerless. Do I feel powerless in this journey? I shouldn't. I've already accomplished a major chunk of weight loss so I know it's possible. I think sometimes I let the craziness of other parts of my life sneak into my weight loss mindset. So is it that I feel powerless to change other parts of my life that I now feel I can't do this either? Maybe I've just had a lot of whirlwind changes over the past two years and things have not quite settled down yet. However, I cling to the notion that if you wait for the right time to start something, that time will never come.
So what to do? Well, yesterday I stopped at my hospital's Weight Control Center. All bariatric sugery patients are funneled through here for pre-op and post-op care. I, unfortunately, did not benefit from this because my surgeon at the time was the only one doing lap bands here and kept all her support functions through her own office. She left town 10 months later, and I ended up with my new guy, who I love. To make a long story short, I joined the weight control center so I could see a nutritionist, but I never took advantage of anything else they have to offer. I now have an appointment with the nutritionist next week and an appointment with one of the medical docs later this month. I'm hoping if I put a little more focus on this area it will help me stay on track. I only have 35 more pounds till goal and I don't want to take another five years to get there.