Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Desperate times call for desperate measures

That's about where I'm at. I had a conversation with a friend on my trip this past week during which I realized just how little effort I've been putting forth lately. I also realized that the beginning of this plateau was the very month I got this new job. Stress much? So I've decided this calls for some major overhaul in how I am approaching life in general these days. I need to build some new habits and new routines and not let myself get dragged down into the muck of ambivalence.

I've been called on the carpet in the past for my ambivalent attitude towards weight loss. I tried to examine it from a psychological perspective, and the best I can come up with is that ambivalence arises from a perception of being powerless. Do I feel powerless in this journey? I shouldn't. I've already accomplished a major chunk of weight loss so I know it's possible. I think sometimes I let the craziness of other parts of my life sneak into my weight loss mindset. So is it that I feel powerless to change other parts of my life that I now feel I can't do this either? Maybe I've just had a lot of whirlwind changes over the past two years and things have not quite settled down yet. However, I cling to the notion that if you wait for the right time to start something, that time will never come.

So what to do? Well, yesterday I stopped at my hospital's Weight Control Center. All bariatric sugery patients are funneled through here for pre-op and post-op care. I, unfortunately, did not benefit from this because my surgeon at the time was the only one doing lap bands here and kept all her support functions through her own office. She left town 10 months later, and I ended up with my new guy, who I love. To make a long story short, I joined the weight control center so I could see a nutritionist, but I never took advantage of anything else they have to offer. I now have an appointment with the nutritionist next week and an appointment with one of the medical docs later this month. I'm hoping if I put a little more focus on this area it will help me stay on track. I only have 35 more pounds till goal and I don't want to take another five years to get there.

11 comments:

Jessica said...

Good Luck!

Dawnya said...

Good for you for taking matters into your own hands. I love it when we realize what needs to be done to get where we are going. I'm in Texas cheering you own gorgeous!!

Kristin50 said...

AWESOME for having the come to Jesus talk with yourself! YOU can change your destiny that is the beauty of this!

We are here for you!

speck said...

Hey Maria,

First of all I just want to say how insightful you are. I think that's a GREAT first step. And I think you are on to some really good points. I would suggest to focus more on that.

Also, when I was off track and clawing my way back up, I really upped the protein a lot and decreased the carbs.

I hope I offered something.

Sandra

Robyn's Nest said...

Great idea- talk to a nutritionist; I bet they can give you some ideas that will help.

Stephanie said...

Maria, don't look at it as a desperate measure. You are doing what you need to do and that is a great thing!! You need to refocus on you and you will be at goal before you know it!

Ronnie said...

You can do it, Maria! I would be willin' to text ya some motivation every day if ya wanted me to. :)

MandaPanda said...

I think these first two steps you are taking seem very logical. I have 30 lbs to go also. Seems there's just something about that mark to where it gets so much harder.

Andrea said...

Good for you for doing something about it and doing everything that you can to get to your goal weight. I know you can do it!

Catherine55 said...

Way to be proactive, Maria! That is a major step!! :)

Beth Ann said...

Concentrate on getting better! Then WE are going to do this thing! :)