Dog tired

That's me. I'm losing it this week. I'm not sleeping great, and I'm trying to break this horrid habit of staying up too late. It's so dumb, especially when I know I'm getting up to exercise in the morning!

This morning I did Week 3 Day 1 of C25k. I ran for three minute straight twice! Whee! I'm getting there. I think this is about where I gave up last time. I looked back through some old blog posts and was surprised to find that it's been over two years since I tried C25k. Back in May 2010, I was five months out from giving birth to my little guy and right in the middle of my biggest chunk of weight loss. I was about 230lbs then, which is 17lbs more than now. Hmmm. Where is my weight loss mojo? Let's not dwell on the fact that I'm only down 17lbs in the last two years. Oy.

I made an appointment at the weight control center to follow up with the docs and nutritionists there. I need some serious guidance with this whole gastroparesis thing. I am committing myself to checking in there monthly to keep myself motivated. This time I mean it! I'd love to be down a size before we move, so I can NOT pack this round of fat clothes!

Perceptions

I was talking to someone at work -- not someone I know, just someone I was talking to in passing -- and this person was talking about having a boob job. So, I mentioned that I wanted to get a tummy tuck eventually. Her eyes about bugged out, and she said, "Really? But you don't look like you need it." Oh lady, can I hug you? I told her about my band and weight loss, and she said, "Wow, you look so normal, I can't even imagine you being a big person!" 

Some days you really need a dose of reality -- even coming from a complete stranger. It knocked me back a couple steps because lately I've been feeling so down on myself. With my stomach issues and my 15lb gain, I've felt like a complete heifer, to be honest. It was good to be reminded that I'm NOT that 275lb girl anymore and that even though I might feel that way sometimes, people do not look at me like that.  Le sigh. On with the day...

Ten Things Thursday!

1. As the sign on my local Walgreen read, "It hot out." I shit you not, that is exactly what it said. I die every time I drive by because I know exactly the person who put it there and I can just picture her saying that. Awesome.

2. I'm so bored at work this week. I chugged through my QA though today and that passed most of the time. It takes frikkin forever, but I only have to spend this much time on it once a month, so it's not too bad. I still have to do my data analysis on it tomorrow, so that will get me through the morning at least.

3. I have come up with the most brilliant bedtime plan EVER for my daughter. She was doing this crap where she would stall and stall and stall instead of going pee and brushing her teeth. I swear we would be in the bathroom for 30 minutes. Unacceptable. I started setting a timer for 4 minutes. If she pees and gets her teeth brushed before it goes off, she gets a sticker. After she earns a certain amount of stickers (I let her decide between 3 and 6 usually), then she gets a reward. Tonight her reward was helping me make cookies. Last time, she got to pick a prize at the dollar store. Next time, it's a trip to the zoo. I'm doing my best to my the rewards 75% not about food. Anyway, I'm thrilled because she has not missed once, and bedtime is going much smoother and faster now.

4. The heat is making me tired. And also probably all the garbage I ate today. Lord, I wish I could have a fill.

5. I'm gearing up to go whole hog and really really go paleo/primal for a good thirty days. I'm halfway there already, but I'm still sneaking quite a bit of junk in and I've been drinking a LOT of fake sugar. Not good.

6. Lifted weights this morning for the first time in two weeks. My shoulders are sore. It feels good.

7. All this humidity really makes the cat pee smell rise out of my couches. We are not bringing this piece of shit with us when we move. Even if it means I have to sit on bean bags for the next six months until I can afford new furniture.

8. I'm letting my hair grow out again to save money. I keep telling myself I look like I have one of those ombre hair dye jobs because my highlights are so grown out, but I probably just look bad. Might need a semi-permanent helper.

9. I put up new curtains in the little guy's room today. One thing down, eight bazillion to go to get this house ready to rent!

10. Can't believe I just blogged two days in a row. What is this world coming to?

Happy 4th!

My sister and I took the girls to the parade this morning. It was fun, but dang was it hot already! We were sitting on a street that runs east and west, so one leg and one arm got about three shades darker tan this morning. Must strategically place myself this afternoon to even out!

I made it out to do my run this morning before the heat kicked in. Here's my workout Wednesday pic for you. It's a bit blurry. Try to ignore the bags under my eyes -- I've been up since 3am!

Today was Day 1 of Week 2 for C25k. So far, so good! I had to ice my shins a little today, but that's to be expected. I really need to find a place where I can run on a trail or a track instead of the concrete sidewalk.

That's all for now. Have a happy 4th everyone!

June Wrap-Up

So, Milwaukee was good. I learned a lot in my class, got in two days of swimming and two gym workouts. I did drink a lot of beer, so I was up a little. The good news is, I'm down to 213.8 this morning, so I managed to recover AND lose some additional over the past week.

In band news, I'm hitting that part of summer where I almost always need an unfill. Well this year, since I'm empty already, I'm noticing I have fairly decent restriction instead of being too tight. Imagine that! I've learned that with the gastroparesis, I can't eat broccoli or cauliflower unless they are really cooked down. They just sit in my throat -- not fun. I also have been getting horrid stomachaches if I eat too much wheat (see below). For instance, on Sunday we stopped at my mom's for like 5 minutes. She had some cold pasta on the stove, so I shoved a few noodles in my mouth because I was starving. Mistake. I wasn't stuck, I just had a bad ache for almost two hours. Lesson learned. I've also been logging my food again with myfitnesspal.com, and I think that's helping too.

I haven't looked at my 2012 goals in a while, so here's a recap and a progress update:

Health

Get to Goal Weight: 170lbs - Actively working on this now instead of just phoning it in.

Give paleo-style eating an honest month (at least) of effort - I'm 90% wheat/grain free. Limited dairy. Still working on the processed food part. As soon as I can manage that, I'll be damn near 100% grain free.

Set monthly exercise goals and track consistently (and blog it!). I just started C25k, so the plan is 3 running workouts per week, plus 2 strength workouts, plus one additional cardio session on the bike or elliptical.

Find fitness events to stay motivated to exercise. - I'm officially signed up for a 5k in September! The course is through a beautiful neighborhood and ends at the Detroit Zoo.

Take supplements daily. - Still taking my Omega 3 Sea Gummies. I really need to get on board with a multi and vit D.

Overall: 4/5. Yay me! 

Home

Paint and install old headboard. - I still want to do this. I need to get it to my dad's house sometime this summer so it will be ready when we move!

Follow the 2012 Organize in 5 Daily Diary. - I plan to start using this again to help declutter in preparation for packing.

Find a space in the basement to organize crafty items/tools. - Scratch this one. My news house has 4 bedrooms and a den. I'll have my very own craft room!

Carve out a little office niche somewhere in the house. - See previous.

Overall: Since the overall goal has changed to decluttering and packing and moving, only the first two really make sense going forward, so those will be the only ones I track.

Work

Finish Service Excellence Certification - They changed the curriculum on me. Boo! I have one more class to do in September. It will be done though!

Do monthly or semi monthly staff morale projects. - We did a really nice potluck for all our June birthdays. I'm planning on doing some fun little summer treats next week.

Overall: Good stuff!

Plans for July: Clean out the garage, continue decluttering the basement. Any knitters or crocheters out there? I have a lot of nice yarn I need to destash. Rock bottom prices! Email me!