Saturday, June 16, 2012

So much for that...

Well, hello there! Yes, I've been hiding. You know... that thing we do when we're struggling and whatnot.

The main reason I haven't been posting is that I've been busy feeling sorry for myself. It's been a five star pity party over here. Remember the EGD I had? Well, the verdict is that I do have gastroparesis or slow stomach/esophageal motility. The good part is that at least I know I'm not crazy. The bad part is, he doesn't want me to have a fill for at least six months. That is what sent me down the rabbit hole. I was really banking on having that fill to help me get back on track, and now that has been taken away. I still haven't been able to talk to my band doc about what this means long term. Knowing what he thinks about the whole situation will help me settle down a bit. For now though, I feel like I'm on my own. I have fleeting restriction even with my band empty, which is a plus. And I've been known to need an unfill almost EVERY July when it gets super hot and humid here. So maybe I'll be ok. I don't know.

Part of my problem is that I'm up to 214. That's 12 pounds up from my low. It's the most I have ever put on after surgery (outside of my two pregnancies). So that is rather depressing. The last few days have been better, and I've felt like I've shaken off the funk a little bit. And, as always, I have a plan. First, me and my buddies (you know who you are) are doing a little six week challenge. Second, I signed up to run a 5k in September, and to get ready for that, I'm eschewing C25k for the NerdFitness Running Guide program. That starts Monday.

In other news, I'll be in Milwaukee for all of next week for a training class. Any bandsters out there in Milwaukee? Shoot me an email!

My other HUGE news is that we finally have a plan to get our of our house! I have been wanting to move pretty much since the day I moved in here, but after the market went to hell, we ended up so underwater I thought we'd be here till kingdom come. We've decided to go with a property management company that will rent our house for up to 6 years, and we get to build a new one. I am seriously peeing my pants with excitement. I can't even believe that I will be living in a brand new house twice the size of this one in less than a year. Lest you think we'll be building a mansion, it's important to point out that my current house is a mere 900 square feet. Exactly. With two adults, two kids, and two cats, you can imagine the chaos we create. This whole thing is also a big part of my mood lifting. Even my hubby noticed!

So that's where I'm at. Since I'll be all lonely in Milwaukee this week, I promise to check in more often. I'm even packing workout clothes. Aren't you proud of me?


Liz said...

Yay for the 5k!!!! I'll have to check out the program you're using to see how it's different.

Yay for the house too!


Rachel said...

Ahhhh I am from Milwaukee but I don't live there anymore!!! Sorry!! xxx

Kristin50 said...

Hang in there my dear, and remember you are not in this all alone!

You are strong you can do this.

Great on the 5k how awesome is that!

Darlin1 said...

Working towards your new house and staying busy will help you keep the lbs off. I am curious what your LB doctor says about your diagnosis.


Lap Band Gal said...

Wow! Awesome plans for the house....! :)

Beth Ann said...

Why didn't I remember you signed up for a 5K? I will blame it on post-surgery haze. That is awesome, Maria!!