Breakthrough

I had an epiphany of sorts today. You know I've been flirting with 200 for over a year now, and you know I talk a good game half the time about how I'm going to get there this time. Blah de frikkin' blah. I get a little close and then, wham, I'm back up to 207. I had a really good week food-wise last week. The scale was moving down nicely, all was well, and then I went a little nutso over the weekend. Not horrid, but enough to undo all the good I had done earlier that week. So, I get on the scale this morning to see what is what. I've lost 1lb this week. Good, right? Well, on my little goal path I have carved out for myself, I should've been almost a whole pound lower. So my brain starts thinking, oh I've failed, I suck, it's never gonna happen. OMG, shut UP. My sane logical self finally kicks in and says, Hey, you lost a pound asshole! What is the matter with you? You have to realize that the 5lbs that took you from 202 back to 207 aren't magically gonna disappear over night! It's time to own them and count them and consider them as actual regain and not some pesky water retention that you can pee out after a low sodium day. Geez.

Anyway.

I realize that I keep beating myself up for not being back to my low right NOW. It's so dumb, isn't it?
Today I set some realistic goals based on where I'm at now, which is 206. In my wildest dreams, in one year, I'd lose 66lbs to be 140. Chop that in half, and it means I'd have to lose 33lbs by mid November. Chop it in half again and we're talking a mere 16 or so lbs by August. In the next four weeks, I'd only have to do about 5.5. WHICH, again, would get me ever so close to onederland. But really, doesn't the whole thing sound... do-able? Scary shit, isn't it? What am I so afraid of? I've already lost more than that, right? What am I afraid is going to be expected of me if I get below 200? Really though, what? No one is going to look at me any different from 206 to 199. And then, there won't be much difference between 199 and 195. Who or what am I so worried about? I wish I could tell you. Instead, I will just get on with it and see what happens when I get there. It's all you can do, right?

Hunting Time

You can't wait for inspiration. You have to go after it with a club"

- Jack London

It's like that for weight loss, don't you think? You can't wait for motivation. You can't wait for someone to push you off your sorry butt into the gym. You can't wait for someone to put a healthy meal in front of you (well, maybe sometimes. But you have to order it first!). You have to make it happen. You have to go get it. You have to search it out and claim it.

Grab your clubs, girls. Let's go catch us some!

Monday Fresh Start

Ah, Mondays. We love to hate them. Back to work, back to the grind, back to the same-old same-old. But maybe it doesn't have to be like that. I recently had the opportunity to take the Franklin Covey 7 Habits for Highly Effective People Signature Course, and there were a few points that really resonated with me. One in particular was how the language and word choices we use shapes our attitudes and creates our reality. For example, changing "I have" to do workout/work to "I get" or "I choose" to do those things makes it a completely different experience. So maybe I'm not going to think, "Ugh, it's Monday again," and dwell on the long week to come (with my husband out of town, chores, etc). Instead, I will think, "Hey, it's Monday again!" And today will instead be filled with possibilities and excitement. 

And, you know what? It is just that. I have my food logged for the day, lunch packed, I already went to the gym, and my work calendar is clear. I'm starting the kids in gymnastics this Thursday (the one for the little guy is parent-tot, so I get to get my tumbling on. Whee!), and I'm really close to meeting my fundraising goal for the Heart Walk this Saturday. Good stuff, right? I'll leave you with a quote:

"All significant breakthroughs are break-"withs" old ways of thinking." - Thomas Kuhn

Happy Monday everyone!

BYOC

1.  Do you have any Mother's Day traditions?
No. But my kids are still little, so there's time to build those.

2.  Do you take a daily vitamin?  Why or why not?
No.  I  stop and start. I would like to be a little more regular about it, but I always fall off the wagon.

3.  Do you wear perfume every day?  If yes, what kind?
No, it's not allowed at work. I wish I could though. I wear it every chance I get. Right now I'm working through Valentino's Rock 'n Rose, Stella McCartney's Peony In Two, and Vivienne Westwood's Boudouir.

 4.  When you walk or run or work out outside - what do you take with you?
Phone, iPod, a few dollars, and water. I try to travel light!

5.  Repeat Question.  Summarize your week.
Just finished a huge event at work, so things are getting back to normal there. Everything is status quo at home, kids are good. Nothing too cray cray.

NSV!

I've been so focused on the complete lack of movement on the scale, that I forgot there are other ways to be successful! Take my pants, for example... I bought these pants about two months ago. They were pretty tight across my hips -- I usually only wear them with a longer sweater. Today though, I noticed I kept having to hitch them up, and so I went to the bathroom to do "the test." Yes, these pants that were once too tight will not slide right off without unbuttoning or unzipping. Pretty cool! Dare I say all the strength training is paying off?